The dawn

I want more

So I take your hand into seclusion

Feeling reckless and wild

We crush against the nearest wall

Far from anyone’s prying eyes

For they have no business

Witnessing our raw inclinations

I grant you access to my lips

Laced with aqua vitae

They tremble in anticipation

Of your delicious onslaught

You hastily place your blistering stamp on them

Your tongue burying in my soft folds

This rouses a duel of wills

And you swiftly subdue your quarry

Thereupon I feel your demanding lips probing me

Calling for my utter surrender

By the gentle graze of your teeth

Soft whimpers erupt from my depths

I wantonly pull you closer to deepen the sensations

And bask in the embers of your blazing passion

I aspire for a lengthy rendezvous

So that I can uncover the scope of your desire

A blossoming affair 💋

My struggle

I struggle with knowing how to share

I struggle with showing how deep my insecurities go

I struggle because I have gotten rejection in return

I struggle because I think my questions will go unanswered

I struggle because I have been shown too many times that my emotions are unimportant or unwanted

I struggle because showing how deep I am, may make the ones I crave flee

I struggle alot in my head and heart

So I keep silent and bottle everything up

Because who really wants to share a load of such proportion with me

My struggle my load to bear

High school boy -2

What is rapture?

I could only feel that in your arms

Those lips that now speak with loathing

Were once my favourite daydream

How would they feel interlocked

In a passionate war that would put earth up in flames

As you have taken on leeches

Don’t you feel them sucking you?

The you that made love to me with mere words

Your words are now tinted with malice

Hitting it’s target, your forgotten flame

The hostility stapled on your face

Permanent.

If you loath me so

Send me to the gallows

Erase me from those words that burn

Why don’t you just do that?

Emotional attachment didn’t suit me until you

It gained momentum as days drew out

With you no one else mattered or existed

It breaks my heart to say so long

But the look in your eyes is enough

Enough to tell me that this must halt

You may not know it

But we have just ended and this time in perpetuity.

Your Forgotten Flame 🔥

My Fine Pianist

I awakened with a fat smile

Bathed in scents of your ministrations

My anatomie’s response to you sublime

With the lingering feeling of your hands treating me

My handsome pianist

Your skillfulness opened me up to elevated pleasures

Your words drew soft responses from my lips

Your kisses my favourite tune

Your attentiveness an intimate caress

Our senses attuned akin to lovers

I left you a present for the morn

It’s three colours pink, purple and black like art

So you remember me as we part

Until we cross paths again my handsome pianist

Your diligence will be cherished

Sincerely, Your Grand Piano 💋

Warm embrace

How I crave for his warm embrace

Tears fall down my face

Can you see in my eyes

How much I hate our goodbyes

I think about you alot

I know in the end we will be fine

Touch me.. Love me.. Be with me

Do to me the things that lovers do

Tell me why you want me

Pick me.. Love me.. Choose me

Precious pain go away

Please don’t come back another day

As I dream of you

This fire I feel.. Sparks.. Heat.. Needing you near

Oh, I can’t pretend anymore

It’s you that I want and adore

I want to give you my heart

And I pray we never part

In the moonlight, I wish on the stars that you were here.

High school boy-1

I was the captive,

And you were my captor.

Caged me when I least expected it,

Took the one thing I vowed to not let go of.

You threw me into the sky,

The flight was fantastic I assure you.

You showed me the meaning of one phrase,

I thought only existed in my imagination.

When I close my eyes, all I see;

Is the me that would have fought billions,

Even trillions for love.

I thought I knew its meaning.

In the sweetest embrace of the look in your eyes,

They were my undoing that I could not tire of.

My ferocity to keep it burning in the furnace;

The furnace we created,

Igniting flames of passion,

With words that you uttered.

Your touch left me wanting, longing;

For your mischievousness and rebellion.

No matter how short and slight we had,

Just the thought of a repeat,

Would thrill me to the core,

But you let me go!

Your Forgotten Flame 🔥

Don’t

I need space,

Don’t force me to speak.

I need to absorb,

Don’t guilt trip me.

I am my biggest critic already,

Don’t make me feel worse.

I can’t take all this pressure,

Don’t push me.

I need to feel understood,

Don’t make this about you.

We all cope differently.

Learn to understand how I cope.

A bad moment may consume me,

But I don’t need your addition into the equation.

Disappointment

A pain in my chest,

A squeeze in my torso,

A feeling of dread,

That’s disappointment for me.

It usually shows its bear claws;

In the ugliest of ways.

Why can’t I come unscathed?

Why does it need to have to feel this dreadful?

Take a deep breath they say,

As an over thinker I am told to take it easy,

Don’t think about it too much,

This too shall pass they say,

Don’t dwell on milk already spilled,

We all have these moments,

That won’t make the dread go away,

If I could stop my thoughts, I would have already!!